A Battle Towards Depression
“It was all in your mind,” a common phrase that most people around me say whenever I talk about my depression. It is a phrase that somehow invalidates what I am going through, particularly in this battle with depression.
“You’ll get over it” is the same as the previous statement. It attempts to shift my depressed mind into thinking that I am capable and mentally strong, not depressed. It may not sound very comforting, but it gives my depressed self that tiny piece of assurance.
Often, it gets into me, and I tend to believe it.
However, I see it as something people would tell me to eliminate the unwanted sadness I bring in.
Unfortunately, that will not change a little about my persistent depressive disorder.
“I know what you’re going through” is one of the phrases I often hear from people who know more about my major depression symptoms. Sure, people know that depression is making me lose control. But who doesn’t? Depression, depressive disorders and anxiety disorders manifest physical symptoms that sometimes result in severe medical conditions.
The statement makes me feel like there is no room for me to express my deepest thoughts and feeling because they already know what I am going through.
But do they understand? How about the times when I think about suicidal thoughts and suicide attempts, constant feelings of sadness at least two weeks in a row, and the use of too many antidepressant medications?
I don’t think people can really relate at all.
“Get over it.”
This phrase invalidates my condition. It depresses me to think I am not worthy of anyone’s time, attention, and effort. It makes me numb and unable to concentrate. It makes me feel more depressed and anxious. It makes me think that seeking help is not an option. It makes my problem worse.
These are quite a few depressive things that I often hear from people who do not understand what I am mentally and emotionally dealing with due to the symptoms of depression. They only know about depression but do not understand how major depressive episode damages a person’s life. Depression is not called major depressive disorder if it’s not that serious.
Fortunately, since I knew I was not okay, I insisted on finding the best solutions for my condition.
I Let Go Of Toxic People
May It Be Friends And/Or Family
One of the hardest parts of my journey to recovery from severe depression is letting go of people I used to be with. It was a decision I thought I could never make sense of. I have this fear of being alone. I was allowed to be surrounded by individuals because I thought that was the most important thing to do during persistent depressive disorder recovery.
However, the more I engage with different people and their opinions on my problem, the more I feel suffocated. So when everyone around me became too demanding, insensitive, uncaring, and inconsiderate, I shut them off. I initially felt bad because some of them are close friends and family.
But ever since I surrounded myself with fewer people, it all made sense. Most of the symptoms of depression, especially the severe ones, were reduced.
It became clear that choosing the right people who will stick with me during this exhausting major depressive disorder recovery process is more empowering than keeping the toxic ones near.
I realized that my mental health is due to the people I surround myself with.
I Expressed My Emotions
Even If Others Do Not Entirely Care About It
Another thing I realized during the worse stages of my clinical depression is that keeping your mouth shut will only make you feel even more alone. So regardless of others not wanting to hear me or not being interested in what I am going through, I still decided to let them know about my perinatal depression.
It is not because I wanted them to sympathize with me on this persistent depressive disorder or anything, but because I want to remove the weight in my chest despite the consequences of people not minding.
I realized that expressing my thoughts and feelings about my condition has nothing to do with other people’s reactions. It is about how I should not endure the emotional pain that ties me to a struggling mental health state.
At some point, I got a little scared that the method will bring me more uncertain emotions. But to my surprise, it became a way for me to focus on myself and not give a damn about what people would think and say. about my many mental disorders.
Seeking For Professional Help Despite My Fears
I Know That’s What I Have To Do
At first, I don’t entirely believe that counseling and therapy would bring me the solutions I needed for my mental disorders. But despite the hesitations, I went through the process.
The counseling and therapy sessions are not that perfect, but the key points of symptoms of depression recovery are there. That is where I realized that there are so many things that I can do to manage my mental health condition.
Some concerned friends and family suggest that I consider talk therapy, electroconvulsive therapy, and other brain stimulation therapies. That way, I can understand the basics about emotional and physical problems that impact my mood swings or increase the risk factors of my depressed mood.
Final Thoughts And Takeaway
I realized that I do not have a bipolar disorder and I am more capable of handling myself. I was surprised that I am almost near my mood disorder recovery after considering some lifestyle adjustments. I became more empowered and self-aware.
Seeking professional help helps me get through the times I can’t control the severe symptoms
of my mood disorders, which I am truly grateful for. My sole focus in treating depression and get rid of other medical illnesses that goes along with it.
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